Despair...

Standing in the midst of my dreams..

Feel trapped between egos and aspirations..
With darkness for company.
Dreams, those dreams chasing me, mocking me..
No, they ain't my worst nightmares.
I admit I wanted those to be a part of my life,
To some extent, at some point of time.
With care and imagination,
Woven with someone I loved!
Caught in the sands of time..
Each one of them,
Ask me the same question time and again
In some sorta creaking voices,
"When I'll be fulfilling them?"
"When I'll set them free..?"
I feel like a prince of some fairy tale
Pleading me to break the curses..
But a part of me,
Don't want to let them go.
Why cant they just leave me alone?
Why cant they shut up?
Choking me deep down.
The more I fight them,
The more they get anxious.
The more they encircle me like a whirlwind.
I wanna close my eyes, my ears..
Till it stops, please make it stop!
Feel out of place these days,
Wanna lock myself somewhere.
Wanna cry, wanna break,wanna keep running
Till I hit something, anything...
Feel like screaming, nothings right...
A distant light, like a ray of hope,
Hope, all I have..
Still, hoping, I wonder for how long..
Till I break down.
Secretly I'd hope,
Someone to come, my guardian angel,
Hold my hand, Show me the way...

(P.S.- I'm writing this after a year!! Sorry for any anomalies, still an amateur I am!)